Tarot Alchemist, Writer & Depression Slayer. My readings help you turn the demon Depression into a Creature of F&*king Beauty http://countessdrusillasteele.com

I’m not angry. I’m disappointed. No…wait…I am fucking angry.

And bitterly disappointed. And sad. And ashamed. And baffled. And proud.

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I lost one of the very few male heroes I have this week, and I’m not the only one. I’ve learned some serious life lessons in the last week and I’ve had to take a long hard look at myself and my own values. But this isn’t about me.

It’s about you, Joss. One of the things I admired about you was that you seemed to understand human beings so well. …

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What’s your motivation? Why do you do what you do for a living?

Why did I choose essential oils and oracle cards?

Here’s why:

I believe that we can eradicate suicide and depression by celebrating our differences with a return to natural solutions rather than chemicals, using creativity to express ourselves and asking for help when we need it.

The worldwide suicide rate offends me. Violently offends me and I believe it should offend you too.

The worldwide suicide rate is also ridiculous when we understand how simply it can be reduced.

I said simply, not easily. I am not…

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The global suicide rate keeps rising. And it’s our fault. The people around us are in pain and that’s because we’re not supporting each other as we should. This must stop. We can’t keep allowing people to die because we haven’t given them the right help.

Depression only exists because we allow it to. There’s no need for it, it serves no purpose at all. We can eliminate it. And we do that by raising confident, creative, and self-aware individuals.

We do it by reminding the grown-ups of this world of the power that comes from sharing our stories and…

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Does this look like someone who has depression?

Well…it is.

Why am I showing you a photo of me looking happy?

Because showing you one of me in the middle of an episode is not helpful for anyone.

Here’s something that is helpful.


If you suffer from depression, there’s a good chance that you’ve had really vivid dreams for most of your life. There’s probably some scientific explanation of why that is, but I don’t care. I don’t deal with science, I deal in with emotion and intuition.

And I know for a fact, that if I don’t get…

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My first experience of antidepressants was when I was in my early twenties. Keep in mind, that these were the days before prozac. I’d basically started crying one day and I found I couldn’t stop. My Doctor at the time referred me to counselling and gave me some pills.

Those things were fucking awful. Every time I blinked, I fell asleep. I had stopped crying sure, but I was barely functioning. My eyesight was blurry, I kept losing my balance, and I had the worst case of the dry horrors that I’d ever experienced.

I came off these babies as…

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The trouble with lightworkers is that their whole thing is “if you ignore it, it will go away.”

You know what? It probably fucking won’t. Ignoring something does not mean it doesn’t exist. It means you’re only getting half of the story and you might be missing out on some vital clue.

I’m all for thinking positively, I think it’s a great idea, and I know it works really well for some people. They’re just not MY people.

Does thinking positively actually work?

Thinking positively doesn’t work for me. And it doesn’t work for the people I work with. …

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We’re told here in NZ that if we’re concerned about our own mental health, our first port of call is our local GP. Now, usually, the local GP’s first (often only) suggestion is anti-depressants.

I have nothing against antidepressants. If I did, I’d be a bloody great hypocrite because I’ve been taking them for most of my life. And I can’t imagine that I’m going to come off them anytime soon either.

But. They’re not the only option. For some people, the idea of taking these tablets is horrifying. And I can’t lie, I used to be one of those…

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I wasn’t always the cool, calm, and collected Countess you see before you now, you know.

Oh no, believe me, at several stages of my life, I’ve been a fucking mess.

To be fair, I’m probably a bit of a mess now too, it’s just that I don’t give a shit anymore. I am who I am, and as I like me, I’m not going to try to be anyone else.

I remember…oh so many things…but one memory that sticks out in my mind was of me lying on my couch in my dressing gown and feeling so very tired…

Woman standing at a sales stand at night
Woman standing at a sales stand at night

Really, I’ve tried it on, I’ve given it a test run and I’m afraid it just doesn’t suit me, so can I have it replaced with the one I originally asked for, please?

What do you mean it looks the same? It’s the complete opposite. What’s wrong with you?

Look, here’s what I ordered:

1. Nice, comfortable, balanced life. The odd turmoil but nothing too drastic. No emotional problems, no physical hardships, no major disruptions during my path to becoming a Child Psychologist (or rock star).

2. One happy marriage, after a gorgeous wedding in my mid-twenties, two kids, a…


What you need to know before hiring a copywriter or writing it yourself.

You don’t have to hire a good copywriter to create your content.
Many businesses carry on providing their readers with a mediocre experience. Some of them even make money. But…

Copywriting inspiration in the form of a red feather quill pen leaving black ink stains on crisp white sheets of paper
Copywriting inspiration in the form of a red feather quill pen leaving black ink stains on crisp white sheets of paper

They’ll never become a major influencer.
They’ll never be known as the ultimate expert in their field.
And they’ll never have enough time to concentrate on doing what they do best.

But hey, the choice is entirely yours to make.

To be fair, one of the reasons people don’t choose to hire copywriters is because they don’t know what a copywriter actually does.

You’re in luck! As you may have…

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